I have made several decisions already about life and music, ways of earning my living, etc., all these decisions have influenced how I finally understand and make music today. In those days of Acoustic Paradise I didn’t know a thing about Multimedia either, I remember that John posted a video of some graphical animated music and I was blown away by it, this is the video:
http://www.google.cl/url?url=http://vid ... VA&cad=rja
After that, I realized in this very instant, that Multimedia was made for me. The good thing about it is that my wife has become an excellent programmer, way better than me, because she's great solving problems and with mathematics.
Many people tell me when at home: “Hey, are you having fun?”, when they see me composing or playing, I tend to be a little bit bothered by this expression... well…, yes, of course I have fun when playing music, but music for me it is not only to have "fun", this is one of the many, many ingredients, and it is for me one of the more external ones. Music is something serious for me, that I use to search and find myself everyday a little more, it is a journey to my own real being which lies somewhere hidden in my soul. My music it is no longer composed with the aim of pleasing others, it must be, above all, real, and if it happens that it pleases people, I am very happy for it, but it is not my main aim.
Said that, I only want to do what I feel, so my music is not commercial at all, except for the Multimedia jobs I do which I am forbidden to publish here or in any other public way. Of course there I have to do something I don’t like sometimes, to please the client, but when it comes to composing music that comes from honest feelings, I do what I feel and nothing but what I feel. I don’t pretend to be famous neither rich, I couldn’t care less about those learned values that are not at all mine, they rather belong to commercial minds and superficial perceptions of art that are empty sometimes. What I want is to make music I am truly found of, even if nobody likes it or if it does not mean anything to anyone, music is for me an essential part of my own being, truthfully.