The worst period of my life

Kenf · Post by **Kenf** » Tue Jun 29, 2004 11:35 am

Hi
I have not been picking on you guys recently as I am going through the worst period of my life.
On the 29th May 2004 Alice my wonderful girlfriend died, she was only 25. My life is shattered, I still find it very difficult to talk about. Our house is so empty without her, I still expect her to walk through the door. I have not been doing any music as we shared our music room she was a very talented composer/pianist, I find it so hard to sit in there without being overcome by grief. Her music is still on the piano as she left it, I miss the sound of the piano filling the house.
My fiends have been fantastic looking after me but at the moment I seem to live by the hour.
Thanks for listening to me.
There are a few photos of Alice at http://www.ecocowboy.com then portraits and people
Regards
Kenf

Nestor · Post by **Nestor** » Tue Jun 29, 2004 11:48 am

Current words means nothing here... I really would like to be near you man... so to share this moment... far too jung, to go... I really have little words, but inside myself I wish you an emotional and spiritual cure, I hope you don't run away from this pain, but you rather concentrate on it, but being calm, and let it be understood, it's the best advice I can give you...

May the forces of your own Spirit, release in you all the pain.

samplaire · Post by **samplaire** » Tue Jun 29, 2004 2:12 pm

Keep my fingers crossed for you Kenf!

petal · Post by **petal** » Tue Jun 29, 2004 2:30 pm

Life isn't allways fair!

I lost my mother last summer much too sooon, so I think I have an idea about what you are going through.
The best advice I can give you is to accept that it takes time to get over such a loss, and give yourself the time to get through it.

May your girlfriend rest in peace!

Thomas

borg · Post by **borg** » Tue Jun 29, 2004 3:15 pm

i wish you all the strength you need and hope you recover well from this sad loss.

astroman · Post by **astroman** » Tue Jun 29, 2004 4:35 pm

you didn't write much, Ken - but those few lines were touching

We can't do much about your real pain, but we can a share a moment of your grief...

all my best and may life win you back one day soon, Tom

Plato · Post by **Plato** » Tue Jun 29, 2004 5:13 pm

My God - I don't even know you but your post really hit me - so sorry to hear your news - thinking of you, and hoping you find peace.

Post by **garyb** » Tue Jun 29, 2004 5:19 pm

i know there's not much to offer but platitudes...
still, i hope that healing comes soon....

Post by **hubird** » Tue Jun 29, 2004 5:30 pm

shocking, no words for this.
Like Nestor said, try to face it if time is there now and then.
I lost someone too once, I learned that looking the pain in the eyes brought relieve somehow.
Words...
Wish you all the strength of the world.

alfonso · Post by **alfonso** » Tue Jun 29, 2004 7:05 pm

I can feel your pain Kenf, I feel it on my skin as I read your post. And as a member of this community I feel honoured to partecipate of such a deep and sad feeling.
The best we can do when we loose someone we love, and this is a common destiny for all of us, is to live our life in the way we would have desired they did if we had passed....

All this love can't be wasted, it must be spread around, we have the power to bring happyness and friendship to others, and this can give a sense to our life....slowly, we must return to life, matured, enriched, and give back the world what we received from our beloved.

Beautiful pictures.
Thanks for sharing. It's important.

Alfonso.

eliam · Post by **eliam** » Tue Jun 29, 2004 7:39 pm

As Saint Germain says : "The outer life's experiences are like the hammering of steel to harden it..."

And so it is. These severe trials that we all face serve at least the purpose of strengthening us and making us tougher and better...

Don't despair, brother, your beloved is in Light's embrace and quite at peace there, I have no doubt about it!

Be at peace too!

Etienne

next to nothing · Post by **next to nothing** » Tue Jun 29, 2004 7:53 pm

please accept my deepest condolances. i know this is a tough time for you, and her other beloveds as well. life seems, as said before, really unfair at times.

Spirit · Post by **Spirit** » Tue Jun 29, 2004 11:12 pm

It always feels so wrong when one so young must go. Hopefully sharing your grief with your online friends around the world may help just a tiny bit to ease the sorrow...

ChrisWerner · Post by **ChrisWerner** » Tue Jun 29, 2004 11:38 pm

That is really tearily.
I know this situation very much and I know that nobody can help you out of this sadness, really.
This will be always a part of your experience but you shouldn´t loose yourself.
Speak about this with friends, honor her time when she was with us. The music will come back and I think she wants you to continue your work.
Be strong!

Kenf · Post by **Kenf** » Wed Jun 30, 2004 3:48 am

Hi
I would like to thank you all so much for your kind words. It does help to talk about Alice but it is still painful.
Thanks again
Kenf

darkrezin · Post by **darkrezin** » Wed Jun 30, 2004 7:27 am

Feeling for your loss Kenf.. hope you manage to stay strong through your grief.

interloper · Post by **interloper** » Wed Jun 30, 2004 8:44 am

I have no words that will make you feel any better, as this will be a personal struggle for you each day. I hope that time will help you heal.

In the meantime, I would suggest that you move. Too many memories where you live now.

And by all means, when you can, channel your feelings into the music. My world was recently turned upside down as well, and it's slowly coming back around. Writing music helped me more than words from friends & family.

interloper · Post by **interloper** » Wed Jun 30, 2004 8:45 am

I have no words that will make you feel any better, as this will be a personal struggle for you each day. I hope that time will help you heal.

In the meantime, I would suggest that you move. Too many memories where you live now.

And by all means, when you can, channel your feelings into the music. My world was recently turned upside down as well, and it's slowly coming back around. Writing music helped me more than words from friends & family.

snoopy4ever · Post by **snoopy4ever** » Wed Jun 30, 2004 9:21 am

Kenf.., thanks for sharing this with us.., I know you are brave enough to heal, take your time..., time is the only way.., but be sure we all are with you somehow.

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Ricardo · Post by **Ricardo** » Wed Jun 30, 2004 9:36 am

Dear Kenf,
The fact that you share this with us, and open your heart means that we will not misplace your trust, that we feel enpowered by your trust as human beings, and our respect goes out to you and your loved one.
May be, if you listen very hard, you will hear her.
My deepest sympathy.